11/29-12/3 Art?...

To me art is something from your heart. Art is something that is made from the heart that expresses our true feelings. It expresses who we are as a person. When you look at a painting or a drawing that someone made, you can sometimes read their personality. Writing is also art to me. If someone writes a story, it also expresses themselves and you can also read their personality too. I am a writer and people read my stories and wonder what the hell is wrong with me because of the stuff I write about. I have two sides and people always see both. I can be a very happy person, but I can also be very violent and troublesome. When I write, I let all my anger out. For being a teenager, I have a lot of anger to let out. That is why I have very violent stories. But, my writing is art to me because it comes from my heart. When people paint and draw they concentrate and they make sure that everything is perfect and it looks great. Everyone I met that draws or paints, says that they make it from their heart. Sometimes people don’t really have to make it from their hearts. They could just draw or paint and they call it art. But I wouldn’t call it art. Songs can also be art. Writing lyrics is very tough. I listen to rap sometimes and the best rapper I know is Eminem. He writes songs as if they were stories from his life. Most of them are stories about his life. That is coming from his heart. That is art. All of his songs I love because he doesn’t rap about stupid stuff. He raps about life. He raps about his mistakes and how that has changed his life. That is definitely art.

11/29-12/3 My Final Words.

Dear Diary,                                                               January 14, 1962

It is day three with being stranded here. I’m not exactly stranded though; I would just rather not leave. I’m on top of this huge ice cliff. Two days ago, I lost my husband. We were walking along the ice shelf and we didn’t see what was before us. He fell. He fell into this opening in the ice shelf. I lost him. He was sucked into this hole that ran over a hundred feet into the ice. He drowned. He always told me that his worst fear was drowning. He said that he would rather be murdered than drowned. God, I lost my whole life the moment he was sucked into that hole. We just got married a couple months ago. We didn’t even start the family we dreamed of yet. I didn’t know what to do. He was gone before I could even say, “I love you.”  I screamed. I screamed his name over and over again thinking that he could hear me, but he couldn’t. His ears, his mouth, his nose was rushing with water. I’m thinking while I sit here and write these words. I’m thinking about what my life would be like without Andrew. Maybe I should jump in also. I can’t be without him. I wouldn’t be able to go on with my life after I get back home. I’d be alone. I wouldn’t be able to live the same way. I can’t toss away our marriage as if it was nothing. What am I supposed to tell his parents or my parents? How would both our families react?  These may be the last words I ever write because I am going to jump into that hole. I am going to be with my husband forever. One day someone will find this book, my diary. Share it with the world if you’d like. I don’t really care. I’m dead.

Sincerely,

May Holiday

11/29-12/3 RAWR!

I chose the one of the tiger because it reminds me of my puppy Miley. Miley is a New Finland. She’s about five months right now and almost seventy pounds. She’s black and white; usually New Finland’s are all black. She is a very doofy puppy. When I say doofy, I pretty much mean stupid. She always has her tongue hanging out of her mouth. Sometimes when she looks at you she just stares like she doesn’t know what’s going on. She is quite stupid, but she is so damn cute. She actually started purring one time when i was rubbing her stomach. I think she has her noises mixed up. This picture makes me feel happy. The first thing I did when I looked at this picture was smile. The way the tiger looks surprised is kind of funny. I have never seen a picture like this before. I’m also pretty sure that this tiger is as big as Miley…and she is still growing. Another reason why I chose this picture was because it’s very pretty. I love animal pictures because well, I love animals. I don’t like owning them, but I still love them. When I look at the picture I get a relaxed feeling. The picture is being taken in the shade. When I think of shade I think of coolness and perhaps a breeze. I like violent pictures also, lol, but not when dealing with animals. I hate when people hurt animals and treat them as if they were nothing. In this picture this tiger is happy and is having fun. I love it when animals are like that. I love funny animal pictures. There hilarious to look at. Another thing I love about this picture is the way the colors go together. It’s not a painting, but the way the colors just collaborate is just so pretty. Normally green and orange don’t go together but in this picture they go perfectly together.

11/22-11/26 “Fear builds walls.”

To me this statement reminds me of love for some reason. It’s kind of like you have a wall up because you don’t want to open up to people. You have a fear of opening up to people. I don’t like opening up to people because I’m so used to people just leaving me and never coming back. Even if you promise that you’ll never leave…I don’t believe you until you prove that. It’s the same way with love. I’ve had my heart broken plenty of times. Each time my heart is broken it’s harder to open up to the next person I meet. I have a fear of my heart being broken again so I put this wall up and I don’t let anyone go through. This statement can also mean fear in general. You don’t want to do anything because you’re afraid you’ll get hurt or you might fail at something. So you put this wall up and pretend that you’re in your own little world.  You don’t let anyone tell you what to do. Or you don’t let people even talk to you to have you change your mind about something. I know some people like that. You try to tell them to change their mind and they shut you out like you’re some alien or something like that. Sometimes I’m like this because I want to do want I want to do. I don’t want people telling me what to do, but it’s not out of fear. It’s just because I don’t like people telling me what to do.

11/22-11/26 >.> sigh...

The Top Ten Things About Nate Zobrest

1.       Rather tall.

2.       He was a red head but is now blonde.

3.       Hangs out way to much with Mono.

4.       Hangs out with Markus.

5.       Has a very low voice.

6.       Talks about Mono a lot.

7.       Is in love with Mono.

8.       Is clearly obsessed with Mono.

9.       Hmmm…he is my editor for Online Publishing.

10.   He also has a little brother that is as tall as he is.

As you can see…I have nothing to know about this Nate man. All I know is that Mono and him are secretly lovers…

11/15-11/19 Meh...holidays....

I don’t have a favorite holiday. When I was growing up we did celebrate everything but somehow they were always ruined. I don’t look forward to any holidays anymore. I could actually care less about them. I don’t want to sound like a negative person but holidays are useless. I am an atheist so to me Christmas doesn’t mean anything to me. I don’t ask for much. Like for this year I want a typewriter…yea…a typewriter. My family though, still celebrates it because they have different beliefs. Another thing is that for my birthday I don’t care for also. It’s not a holiday but we still celebrate it. I don’t ask for much for that day either. We actually don’t have to celebrate it all, but my dad buys me stuff anyways. Thanksgiving is about food…cool. I eat large amounts of food ever day so Thanksgiving isn’t real to me. New Years Eve and day…really? Do we seriously have to celebrate another boring year? All of those small one day holiday things that we don’t have vacations on I’m cool with those because we don’t have school. Also, they are not over celebrated. For my family though we actually celebrate Martin Luther King Jr. day. We’re ridiculous like that. I can go into further details there but some people might find it racist and I don’t want that to happen.  Halloween on the other hand is pretty legit. I love going out and getting candy. After that I might go to the movies or just stay home and watch movies with my friends and siblings. I’m a creepy person when it comes to this holiday. I wish that it would rain blood. Yes, rain blood. Now, that would be a real Halloween. That would definitely make it scary and set the mood for that day. Other than that I don’t really care for holidays. Then again is Halloween even a holiday? We don’t even get school off for it yet it’s still important somehow.

11/15-11/19 That "Guy"

To me winning isn’t really important. When I think about the meaning of winning I always think about sports and think about the scores. The person with the higher score at the end of the game is the winner. Well, I could really care less. If I was playing a sport or something like that I would probably care more about winning and what not, but since I don’t play sports because I’m lazy I don’t care about winning. Another thing that I think about when the word winning pops into my mind is gambling or just games in general. I’d rather lose because of the way people get when they win. You always have that one guy that is so damn cocky you just want to punch them in the face. During gym you always have that guy that takes the game so seriously. It’s like hello…this is gym…it’s not real. Just thinking about someone like that kind of makes me mad. Maybe if I was playing to win money or a new car or something serious like that…then I would like to win. I never want to be that “guy.” I’d rather die before that day comes. I play games and stuff like that to have fun. If I lose…well I lose. It’s not a big deal for me. I’ve lost more than I’ve won in my life. I’m used to losing. I’m not that type of loser that whines about it. That is also annoying. If I lose I just tell myself to work or try harder the next time. I always tell myself that. I never give up. I also tell people that. If we lose a game in gym or something like that I always tell them, “Good job” or “Nice try.” It makes them feel good, well at least it makes me feel good when people say it. Winning isn’t a big deal. If I tried at all, that’s winning to me.

11/15-11/19 Thank you!

I am thankful for many things. I’m thankful for having such a great family. Even though we’ve been through a ton of stuff this past year, we held together and got through it. I’m also thankful for Caitlin Whelchel. I am so happy that I have a best friend that I can go to for anything. She knows all my deep dark secrets and she knows how not to tell anyone. She’s a sister to me and without her I don’t know what I would be like now. I would probably be some evil person because she brings the good out of me.  Just thinking about me being evil kind of scares me, yea I don’t like that. I’m also thankful for Tayelor Sero and her family. Her mom has taken me in as if I was her own. My mom never really hugged me or told me that she loved me. When it comes to Tayelor’s mom, I get hugs and kisses all the time. Her home is my home. I love the feeling when I walk through those open doors and into the arms of my new mom. It feels right. She’s not married to my dad…but she is still my mom. I don’t know what I would be like without her also. Without my friends and family I could see myself being some evil person. I’m happy with the way my life is now. Of course I have some ups and downs but I have people to go to for all of that and then I’m back to my normal self. I am very thankful for every single person in my life. I wouldn’t be the same without them. Another person I’m thankful for is my bestest friend Emily Matos. She doesn’t go to Alden. She lives in Connecticut…but that doesn’t mean she can’t be my best friend. When I can’t go to my family or other friends here, I can go to her. She also knows many secrets about me and things I’ve done that I’ve regretted and she doesn’t judge me on that. When I was going through some rough spots she was there for me with open arms. Thank you.

11/8-11/12 {2pac's Alive}

“We gotta make a change. It's time for us as a people to start makin' some changes. Let's change the way we eat, let's change the way we live and let's change the way we treat each other. You see the old way wasn't working so it's on us to do what we gotta do, to survive.”

                                                                                -2pac

This great quote is from 2pac’s song “Changes.” I like this quote because we have to change things around here to make things better for the present and future. We have people saying that we need to make changes, but instead of just saying it we should get a move on it. This may have been from a song, but it says a lot. 2pac’s alive.

“Even though we’ve lost someone, it doesn’t mean that has to stop us. We have to move on and be strong.”

                                                                                -Michael Herter (my father)

When my mom first left, we didn’t know what exactly was going on. We soon found out that she did move on out of all of our lives. My dad was always there for us and he still is. He said that quote a month after she left. We are stronger than ever and even though my mother has left, we have moved on and we didn’t let anything stop us.

“If you do not hope, you will not find what is beyond your hopes.”

-St. Clement of Alexandra

This quote I pretty much just googled, but it says a lot. I don’t know how to say this but I hope a lot about things. I hope to grow old with a family. I hope to never run out of money to the point that I’m homeless or something like that. I hope to be the best mother I can be. If I hope I can perhaps find more than what I hoped for and that’s what this quote says.

 

11/8-11/12 Honkers McGee?!

If I could have lunch with three people living or deceased they would be my brother Donald, Andy Sixx and Honkers McGee. I’m going to get really serious for the first person I’m going to talk about. My brother Donald died when he was really young from an allergic reaction to something. I wasn’t born yet so I don’t know anything about him. If he was alive right now he would be 32. I would want to sit down with him and actually get to know him. Sometimes I just sit alone and think about what he was a like. Nobody in my family talks about him so it’s hard to find things out about him. If I was with him face to face I’m pretty sure he would tell me something’s about himself. The second person I would have lunch with is Andy Sixx. He is the lead singer of Black Veil Brides. He is so damn hot. I would do anything to have lunch with him. He’s almost like a hero to me. I love all his music, his voice and his looks. He’s an awesome person. The third person is Honkers McGee. He doesn’t really exist. He is just some one that Cait and I made up, but seriously it would be awesome to have lunch with that man. He’s gay, with a top hat with a molest-stash. He almost looks like the Monopoly guy but a lot younger and has better taste in clothing. Out of the three of these people it’s easy to choose who I want to have lunch with the most. My family comes first before anything or anyone.

11/8-11/12 OM NOM!!!!

My family usually celebrates Thanksgiving together. We wake up early to make breakfast and to watch Macy’s Thanksgiving parade. After we make breakfast we usually start dinner and work on it until two p.m. While we wait for dinner to be done we play Apples to Apples. My whole family plays except for my grandma. She just sits back and watches. That’s the only game we usually play because we are really inappropriate when we play it which makes it fun. Sometimes one of us ends up pissed because Sara or Mono says something offensive. Yea…that pretty much sounds right.  After dinner I usually do the dishes and we just sit around the table and talk about anything. We put the food away for tomorrow because that’s when we usually have left overs for the next couple days. I love holidays like this because hearing my family laugh and have a great time is what makes me happy. I wish we had holidays like this all the time.  Around seven or something like that we have desert which is pumpkin pie that my grandma made. After that we pretty much just pass out because of all the eating we did. On holidays like this we forget about all the problems that we have had or that were having now and we just laugh and have a great time. We block out our problems so they don’t ruin our time. We actually get together and get a long which doesn’t happen much in the Herter house.

11/1-11/5 R-E-S-P-E-C-T!

Respect: to honor or look up to someone as an elder. I know it’s a weird definition, but it’s what I think respect is. I give my father respect because he does a lot for me. He loves me; he takes care of me, and so on. He deserves all the respect I give him and more. Teachers also need respect. They are elders and they are taking their time to teach us and give us an education. Yes they are getting paid to do it, but they also need the respect from their fellow students to keep them going. I don’t respect someone that treats me like garbage. Let me explain that to you. If someone gives me attitude that I don’t deserve, I will not respect you. If someone hurts me either physically or mentally, I will not respect you. If you hurt someone that I love, not only will I hurt you, I will not respect you either. If someone that doesn’t know me gives me a mean look or even tries to judge me for someone that I am not, I will not respect you. What goes around comes around. I respect many people because that’s the right thing to do. There always has to be a reason not to respect someone. Besides trust, respect is very important in a relationship. Without it, I don’t think you have a relationship. It’s how you get along with someone. Easily though, I can lose respect for someone. If I do lose respect for you, you have to do a lot to get my respect back. It won’t be easy.

11/1-11/5 The best author in the world!

My dream job is to be an author. When I was younger though, I wanted to be a masseuse. That all changed because of Markus Magic-Markers Herter. We were standing outside one day playing football and we were talking about zombies for some reason. He looked up at the roof and was like, “We should make a bridge going to the garage so we can escape the zombies if the apocalypse happened.” Of course I was like, “Hell yes!” He told me I should write a story about zombies and what not so I did. I called my first story Zombie Alive. It’s not creative, but after the first one the titles became better. After that I couldn’t stop writing. Soon enough my five page stories turned into full blown novels that were almost 300 pages long. Each story that I wrote ended up getting longer and longer and then it got more detailed. In school I would take writing classes and learn more about punctuation and learn more vocabulary so I can become a better writer. I started writing in seventh grade which was in 2007 and I’ve been writing ever since. I plan on writing for the rest of my life. It’s hard coming up with ideas with each new story, but they keep getting better and I hope they will continue getting better. My friends really support me on writing my stories because they read them and comment on them. I fell in love with writing, and I will stay in love with writing for the rest of my life.